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Still recruiting participants for study on self-harm [01 Dec 2010|02:12pm]
perl_sfu
Hi there,

I know some members from this group have participated in our research, so I wanted to send along a quick update and to let you know that we are still recruiting participants for our research on self-harm.  The Characteristics Associated with Self-Injury Study began in March 2009. Since we began, over 350 people from 18 different countries have participated in this study. 83 people are currently participating in the longitudinal portion of the study, completing questionnaires every three months. This part will help us understand patterns of self-injury over time, as well as what motivates people to recover or stop from self-injuring. 

Below is some more information about the study. Please email us at perl@sfu.ca if you have any questions or if you are interested in participating!

Best wishes!
The Personality and Emotion Research Lab




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Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)!

Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! Participating in the study takes 2 hours, and you will receive an online gift certificate worth $10 CAD for each time point you complete, plus a chance for a $25 bonus if you complete all the follow-ups for a total of $75.

If you are interested in participating, please email us at perl@sfu.ca. All your information will be kept confidential, and no identifying information is linked to your responses.


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THE DETAILS:

Background Information:

Self-injury (sometimes called “self-harm”) involves harming yourself on purpose. Some examples include cutting or burning yourself, taking an overdose of pills, or banging your head. Right now, very little is known about why people start or stop self-harming. The Personality and Emotion Research Lab (PERL), a research team from Simon Fraser University in Canada, is conducting a study to learn more about the experiences of people who self-harm, and we want your help! We are interested in how emotions, life experiences, stress and coping styles affect self-harm. We hope that this research will help other people understand more about why people self-harm and what they can do to help.

What you can do:

If you want to participate in this study, you will fill out online questionnaires on self-harm, emotions, coping, symptoms, and life events. These questionnaires will take approximately 2 hour to complete. Later, you’ll have a chance to complete follow-up questionnaires over a 12 month period. Although the first session is long, the follow-up questionnaires are shorter, and usually take on 30 to 90 minutes to complete.

Who can participate:

We are looking for people who currently self-harm (whether you are trying to stop or not), AND those who have self-harmed in the past and quit.You must be at least 16 years old to participate.

What’s in it for you:

Participants who complete the questionnaires will receive a $10 (Canadian currency) gift certificate each time you complete the questionnaires (from amazon.com or PayPal). In addition, you will receive a $25 bonus if you complete all five follow-ups in the first year! Telling us about your experiences will give us important information on how self-harm changes over time, and could help develop and improve treatments for people who want to stop self-harming.

Important Information:

This study is the second phase of this line of research, and builds on the previous study. If you have already participated in our research (in a study called “Characteristics Associated with Self-Injury”), you are still eligible to complete this study.

Please contact us at perl@sfu.ca if you are interested in participating or if you have any questions.

Thank you,

Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)
Simon Fraser University
Department of Psychology
RCB5246, 8888 University Drive
Burnaby, BC, Canada V5A 1S6
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Help Us Understand Self-harm [24 Oct 2010|10:23pm]
perl_sfu
 Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)!

Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help!  We are looking for people who have self-injured, whether you are currently trying to stop or not, to complete questionnaires every 3 months for one year to understand patterns of self-harm over time.  Participating in the study takes 2 hours, and you will receive an online gift certificate worth $5 CAD for each time point you complete, plus a chance for a $25 bonus if you complete all the follow-ups over one year for a total of $50.

If you are interested in participating, please email us at emotion@sfu.ca. All your information will be kept confidential, and no identifying information is linked to your responses.


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THE DETAILS:

Background Information:

Self-injury (sometimes called “self-harm”) involves harming yourself on purpose. Some examples include cutting or burning yourself, taking an overdose of pills, or banging your head. Right now, very little is known about why people start or stop self-harming. The Personality and Emotion Research Lab (PERL), a research team from Simon Fraser University in Canada, is conducting a study to learn more about the experiences of people who self-harm, and we want your help! We are interested in how emotions, life experiences, stress and coping styles affect self-harm. We hope that this research will help other people understand more about why people self-harm and what they can do to help.

What you can do:

If you want to participate in this study, you will fill out online questionnaires on self-harm, emotions, coping, symptoms, and life events. These questionnaires will take approximately 2 hour to complete. Later, you’ll have a chance to complete follow-up questionnaires over a 12 month period. Although the first session is long, the follow-up questionnaires are shorter, and usually take on 30 to 90 minutes to complete.

Who can participate:

We are looking for people who currently self-harm (whether you are trying to stop or not), AND those who have self-harmed in the past and quit.You must be at least 16 years old to participate.

What’s in it for you:

Participants who complete the questionnaires will receive a $5 (Canadian currency) gift certificate each time you complete the questionnaires (from amazon.com or PayPal). In addition, you will receive a $25 bonus if you complete all five follow-ups in the first year! Telling us about your experiences will give us important information on how self-harm changes over time, and could help develop and improve treatments for people who want to stop self-harming.

Important Information:

This study is the second phase of this line of research, and builds on the previous study. If you have already participated in our research (in a study called “Characteristics Associated with Self-Injury”), you are still eligible to complete this study.

Please contact us at emotion@sfu.ca if you are interested in participating or if you have any questions.

Thank you,

Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)
Simon Fraser University
Department of Psychology
RCB5246, 8888 University Drive
Burnaby, BC, Canada V5A 1S6
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Please Help Researchers Understand Self-harm [27 Jul 2010|02:33pm]
perl_sfu
Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)!

Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! Participating in the study takes only 90 minutes, and you will be entered into a draw to win one of five prizes of $150 CAD. If you are interested, please email us at chapman_lab@sfu.ca. All your information will be kept confidential, and no identifying information is linked to your responses.

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THE DETAILS:

Background Information: Self-injury (sometimes called “self-harm”) involves harming yourself on purpose. Some examples include cutting or burning yourself, taking an overdose of pills, or banging your head. Right now, very little is known about why people start or stop self-harming. The Personality and Emotion Research Lab (PERL), a research team from Simon Fraser University in Canada, is conducting a study to learn more about the experiences of people who self-harm, and we want your help! We are interested in how emotions, life experiences, stress and coping styles affect self-harm. We hope that this research will help other people understand more about why people self-harm and what they can do to help.

What you can do: If you want to participate in this study, you will fill out online questionnaires on self-harm, emotions, coping, symptoms, and life events. These questionnaires will take approximately 90 minutes to complete.

Who can participate: We are looking for people who currently self-harm (whether you are trying to stop or not), AND those who have self-harmed in the past and quit.

What’s in it for you: Participants who complete the questionnaires will be entered in a draw to win one of five prizes of $150 CAD. Telling us about your experiences will give us important information on how self-harm changes over time, and could help develop and improve treatments for people who want to stop self-harming.

Important Information: This study is the second phase of this line of research, and builds on the previous study. If you have already participated in our research (in a study called “Characteristics Associated with Self-Injury”), you are still eligible to complete this study.


Please contact us at chapman_lab@sfu.ca if you are interested in participating or if you have any questions.

Thank you,

Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)
Simon Fraser University
Department of Psychology
RCB5246, 8888 University Drive
Burnaby, BC, Canada V5A 1S6
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Please Help Researchers Understand Self-harm [14 Apr 2010|10:27am]
perl_sfu

 

 
Hello from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)!

We're entering our last couple weeks of recruitment for our current study on self-harm.  A big thank you to those of you who have already participated in this research, your input and willingness to share your experiences with us is incredibly valuable!  To those who still want to participate, just send us an email at chapman_lab@sfu.ca.  You can find a bit more information about the study below.

Thanks again, and best wishes!

The Personality and Emotion Research Lab

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Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm?

 

Self-injury (sometimes called “self-harm”) involves harming yourself on purpose. Some examples include cutting or burning yourself, taking an overdose of pills, or banging your head. Right now, very little is known about why people start or stop self-harming. The Personality and Emotion Research Lab (PERL), a research team from Simon Fraser University in Canada, is conducting a study to learn more about the experiences of people who self-harm, and we want your help!  We are interested in how emotions, life experiences, stress and coping styles affect self-harm. We hope that this research will help other people understand more about why people self-harm and what they can do to help. 

 

What you can do: If you want to participate in this study, you will fill out online questionnaires on self-harm, emotions, coping, symptoms, and life events. These questionnaires will take approximately 2 hours to complete.  

 

Who can participate: We are looking for people who currently self-harm (whether you are trying to stop or not) AND those who have self-harmed in the past and quit.

 

What’s in it for you: Participants who complete the questionnaires will be paid $5 CAD (money transfers via PayPal). You can also choose to participate in our long-term study, where you will fill out a shorter version of the questionnaires every three months for two years. You will be paid $5 CAD each time you complete a set of questionnaires (about 30 min each), and you will get a $15 CAD bonus once you have completed all 9 sets for a total of $60 CAD. Telling us about your experiences will give us important information on how self-harm changes over time, and could help develop and improve treatments for people who want to stop self-harming.

 

Please contact us at perl@sfu.ca if you are interested in participating or if you have any questions.

 

Thank you,

 

Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)

Simon Fraser University

Department of Psychology
RCB5246, 8888 University Drive
Burnaby, BC, Canada V5A 1S6


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Help Researchers Understand Self-harm [31 Mar 2010|02:21pm]
perl_sfu

 
Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)!

Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! Participating in the study takes only 90 minutes, and you will be entered into a draw to win one of five prizes of $150 CAD. If you are interested, please email us at chapman_lab@sfu.ca. All your information will be kept confidential, and no identifying information is linked to your responses.

**************************************************************
THE DETAILS:

Background Information: Self-injury (sometimes called “self-harm”) involves harming yourself on purpose. Some examples include cutting or burning yourself, taking an overdose of pills, or banging your head. Right now, very little is known about why people start or stop self-harming. The Personality and Emotion Research Lab (PERL), a research team from Simon Fraser University in Canada, is conducting a study to learn more about the experiences of people who self-harm, and we want your help! We are interested in how emotions, life experiences, stress and coping styles affect self-harm. We hope that this research will help other people understand more about why people self-harm and what they can do to help.

What you can do: If you want to participate in this study, you will fill out online questionnaires on self-harm, emotions, coping, symptoms, and life events. These questionnaires will take approximately 90 minutes to complete.

Who can participate: We are looking for people who currently self-harm (whether you are trying to stop or not), AND those who have self-harmed in the past and quit.

What’s in it for you: Participants who complete the questionnaires will be entered in a draw to win one of five prizes of $150 CAD. Telling us about your experiences will give us important information on how self-harm changes over time, and could help develop and improve treatments for people who want to stop self-harming.

Important Information: This study is the second phase of this line of research, and builds on the previous study. If you have already participated in our research (in a study called “Characteristics Associated with Self-Injury”), you are still eligible to complete this study.


Please contact us at chapman_lab@sfu.ca if you are interested in participating or if you have any questions.

Thank you,

Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)
Simon Fraser University
Department of Psychology
RCB5246, 8888 University Drive
Burnaby, BC, Canada V5A 1S6

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Help Researchers Understand Self-harm [23 Dec 2009|10:07pm]
perl_sfu
Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)!

Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! Participating in the study takes only 90 minutes, and you will be entered into a draw to win one of five prizes of $150 CAD. If you are interested, please email us at chapman_lab@sfu.ca. All your information will be kept confidential, and no identifying information is linked to your responses.

**************************************************************
THE DETAILS:

Background Information: Self-injury (sometimes called “self-harm”) involves harming yourself on purpose. Some examples include cutting or burning yourself, taking an overdose of pills, or banging your head. Right now, very little is known about why people start or stop self-harming. The Personality and Emotion Research Lab (PERL), a research team from Simon Fraser University in Canada, is conducting a study to learn more about the experiences of people who self-harm, and we want your help! We are interested in how emotions, life experiences, stress and coping styles affect self-harm. We hope that this research will help other people understand more about why people self-harm and what they can do to help.

What you can do: If you want to participate in this study, you will fill out online questionnaires on self-harm, emotions, coping, symptoms, and life events. These questionnaires will take approximately 90 minutes to complete.

Who can participate: We are looking for people who currently self-harm (whether you are trying to stop or not), AND those who have self-harmed in the past and quit.

What’s in it for you: Participants who complete the questionnaires will be entered in a draw to win one of five prizes of $150 CAD. Telling us about your experiences will give us important information on how self-harm changes over time, and could help develop and improve treatments for people who want to stop self-harming.

Important Information: This study is the second phase of this line of research, and builds on the previous study. If you have already participated in our research (in a study called “Characteristics Associated with Self-Injury”), you are still eligible to complete this study.


Please contact us at chapman_lab@sfu.ca if you are interested in participating or if you have any questions.

Thank you,

Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)
Simon Fraser University
Department of Psychology
RCB5246, 8888 University Drive
Burnaby, BC, Canada V5A 1S6
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worried [31 Aug 2009|08:54pm]

cassiecain32120
I was dismantling a shaving razor and it sliced my finger pretty badly I think, the top part of it (the knuckle below the finger nail)...there was a flap of skin, it looked pretty deep for a finger....I just put the flap back down & wrapped my finger in guaze & then put a bandaid over it, is that enough of what to do to make sure it heals properly?  I do martial arts so I need tips of how to make sure I still have full range of motion in my finger.  Maybe I'm overreacting, I hope so at least.

It bled a lot so that was good, it gave me motivation to actually get out of bed and maybe study, but at the same time I am really worried about my finger.  Like, I'm scared to bend it, it might ruin the healing process.

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problem [30 Aug 2009|03:24pm]

cassiecain32120
My weight lifting class starts tomorrow, and its not like I can wear longsleeves to it, I don't have any exercize-type longsleeves shirts.  Any advice?  Should I just wear a tank top or should I make an attempt to hide it?  Would it look weird to be wearing armwarmers?  I feel like either way it would be extremely obvious; I don't even know if I even care.  Mostly I am just worried about what the teacher thinks; not the other students.
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I'm new. (: [26 Aug 2009|03:46am]

cassiecain32120

Name: Cassie C.
Age: 19
Location: USA
Gender: Female
Form of Self Injury: cutting, & impact martial arts; thinking about starting burning but hesitant, I like seeing blood when I self injure or at least bruises.
Why do you Self Injure? Many reasons...because I feel numb & there is so much I should be feeling, to deal with stress & sadness, to remember myself, to hold on to myself, to feel strong, to test myself, push my limits, it is even somewhat spiritual to me, I am mesmerized by blood flow and don't really want to ever stop, maybe do it less often one day but never stop completely.
When was your first time? when I was 18, razor blade
Where do you most often Self Injure?In the summer, my thighs; in the school year (college), my arms b/c it is much more powerful there.
What do you use? razor blades, razor sharp knives, sometimes broken glass
Do you hide it? I hide it from the people that if they knew, it would be taken away from me.  But I don't hide it from my few rare friends, and plan on eventually letting the ppl in my martial arts group know, and when I go out I don't give a shit what strangers think.  
Anyone know? Two people.  Not that close of friends, but the only kinda-sorta friends I have.  Also my family knows that I "used to"; they have no clue I started again even though it's so obvious.
Ever been in treatment for your Self Injury? No.  I've been in treatment for anorexia though, 5 years of my life wasted only caring about what number my weight is, but needless to say my passion is martial arts now and I have long outgrown anorexia.  Ana simply died.  I don't plan on letting my friend the razor blade ever die.
What are you hoping to get out of this community? Friendship & understanding

I have currently: realized that I don't even care who sees my cuts and scars, as long as it isn't my family.  It's a part of me, so why should I hide???  Yes, some people will judge me, yes, some people will falsely label me, but the people who would do that, are the people who it is in their nature to do that, and thus they are not worth my time or friendship anyways; a true friend will accept me for who I am.  "Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." That is the saying I live by.  And the lyrics of Kerli Koiv's song, "Beautiful Inside":
Is it cold where I'll be tonight
I should say that I don't care at all
Do I have a place to sleep at night
You should know that I don't care at all

You wont hear me cry
Cos I don't care at all
I'm beautiful inside
And I don't care at all

If u'll take me away
Whatever u do
Whatever u say
I don't care about me
I don't care about u
I don't know what is right
Don't know what is wrong
I'm singing my song
I'm not trying to hide that I am beautiful inside
Beautiful inside

Am I drunk or high tonight [in this part i just replace it w/ "bleeding"/"cutting"....b/c i don't drink alcohol or do drugs,never will]
I am sure that I don't care at all
Do you still wanna hold me tight
I'm not sure that I don't care at all

You wont hear me lie
Cos I don't care at all
I'm a little creep inside
Who doesn't care at all

If u'll take me away
Whatever u do
Whatever u say
I don't care about me
I don't care about u
I don't know what is right
Don't know what is wrong
I'm singing my song
I'm not trying to hide that I am beautiful inside
Beautiful inside. Beautiful inside

If u'll take me away
Whatever u do
Whatever u say
I don't care about me
I don't care about u
I don't know what is right
Don't know what is wrong
I'm singing my song
I'm not trying to hide that I am beautiful inside
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Shalom, i'm new [15 Aug 2009|01:55am]

lifexorxdeath14
[ mood | blah ]


Name: Alex
Age: 14
Location: USA
Gender: Female
Form of Self Injury: cutting mainly
Why do you self injure? because sometimes when i feel hurt or angry or in pain emotionally i feel that when i cut... it dulls that pain.
When was your firs time? When i was last year around the middle of summer
Where do you most often self injure? on my forearms and my thighs
What do you use? blades and knives. sometimes glass
Do you hide it? i use to. but not anymore.
Anyone know? yes. my parents and my old friends.
Ever been in treatment for your self injuries? once i cut a little too deep and had to go to the hospital. and now i do therapy very often.
What are you hoping for to get out of this community? someone who understands.
i have currently: made a knew scar on my left arm : /

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[11 Aug 2009|05:45pm]

somnus_est_non
Hi, I'm new.... :\

Name:
Ellie
Age: 16
Location: USA
Gender: Female
Form of Self Injury: cutting, scratching, burning, beating myself up... pretty much anything you can think of.
Why do you Self Injure? I Si to kinda feel numb, to forget about life, to focus when I cant think straight, to just... deal.
When was your first time? A couple years ago, when I was in 8th grade.
Where do you most often Self Injure? Mostly my wrists, forearms, and thighs, along with (occasionally) my stomach.
What do you use? I dont have razors or anything, so I use whatever I can find.... but i guess usually blades from dismantled pencil sharpeners...
Do you hide it? Not really. Sometimes I do, if my fiance is looking for them. Most of the time I dont care.
Anyone know? Only my fiance knows. Oh and also my little brother. My mom knows I did, but... she doesnt think so anymore.
Ever been in treatment for your Self Injury? I was going to, but my mom kinda forgot about me, and so... Ive never been to the doctor about it.
What are you hoping to get out of this community? I want someone to listen, to understand. Someone to talk to and relate to. I also wanna be there for people, and maybe help them to the best of my ability.

I have currently: Started my Ed's again, as well as other things relating to my mental health. :\
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[03 Aug 2009|05:47pm]

run_like_hell88
Name: Danielle
Age: 20
Location: North Carolina, usa.
Gender: Female
Form of Self Injury: Cutting, burning,
Why do you Self Injure? Pain is easier to feel fiscally than emotionally, I do it to drain out the emotional pain.
When was your first time? September, 2003
Where do you most often Self Injure? Hips, stomach, chest.
What do you use? razors, knifes: Knifes, razor blades, scissors, lighters, cigarettes what ever is handy when I can't take it any more.
Do you hide it? Yes.
Anyone know? My boyfriend.
Ever been in treatment for your Self Injury? No, but I manged to stop for almost two years on my own, but recently it has gotten to one of the highest points.
What are you hoping to get out of this community? Support and to help support others.

I have currently: Started cutting at least every other day if not ever day which I haven't done since I was 17 and thought I had gotten myself under control, but I hurt so bad on the inside that I can't take it anymore.
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Me,.. [30 Jun 2009|11:38pm]

olsenfanxxx
[ mood | Numb and craving ]


Name: Kim
Age: 14
Location: Ireland
Gender: Female
Form of Self Injury: Cutting
Why do you Self Injure? to deal with anger, pain, rejection, sadness, and to feel like I can control when/were I do it. I am control
When was your first time? Last October 2008
Where do you most often Self Injure? My Right leg, both of my legs, thies, and sometimes wrists, All over my body
What do you use? razors, knifes: Razors, but reacently Knifes as my friend took every single one of my razors but I got new ones.
Do you hide it? Yes, the whole time, I hate that people know.
Anyone know? A few friends, and I think my dad found out, he saw scars on my arm, and I amnt sure will he ask me, but I am pretty sure he knows now too
Ever been in treatment for your Self Injury? No, but 2 of friends gave me numbers and emails and everything to get help but I refuse to
What are you hoping to get out of this community? I want to be able to talk to people who know how I feel and not just act like they know

I have currently: Started Smoking, Drinking, and looking for drugs =/ But I havnt cut in about over a week maybe, but thats only because I spend my money on cigerates, and alcohol so I dont have any money left, My friend took my knife, and blades all of them!!! and threw them away in the park somewere, so there gone! but I Found 2 new blades which is great, but yeah, if anyone wants my msn hotmail me here:
olsenfan007@hotmail.com
and I Will give you my msn x

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Writing helps me cope [11 Jun 2009|01:43pm]

tamarabryant
Hi.  My name is Tamara and I am new to this community.  It has been a couple years since I last injured myself.  I have been doing much better and have surrounded myself with things and people that make me happy and feel more positive.  I have always found comfort in writing.  Writing has helped me get through a lot of the struggles that I have endured while growing up.

I recently got my book, "Stumbling and Mumbling", published and it is up for sale.  I know I am not supposed to advertise here but I believe that people here may be able to relate to what I have written and it may even help them.  It helps to know that you are not alone in your fight.

The other issues covered in the writing in this book include domestic violence, suicide, love, death, mourning, addictions, growing up, and finding oneself.

If you're interested, click below:

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First post [03 Jun 2009|04:12am]

ladyfat211
[ mood | blah ]

Hi,
This is my first post as i've just joined.
I've been self harming for almost a year and will probabaly continue for a while just being careful not to take it too far.
My parents haven't noticed and i'm getting really good at lying so they think everything's fine but i'm pretty much dying inside.
I'd love to offer support for anyone that needs it and hope I will get support back.

Ladyfat

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New, First Post [31 May 2009|12:05am]

trip_trip_trip
Name: Rachel
Age: Eighteen
Location: California
Gender: Female
Form of Self Injury: Cutting, bruising
Why do you Self Injure? Stress reliever. Keeps my thoughts at bay so I can concentrate and so I can just forget.

When was your first time?
When I was twelve with a metal pick of sorts.

Where do you most often Self Injure?
I used to cut exclusively on my wrists, but I can't because it's too hard to hide. Now I do it on my right thigh.

What do you use?
Eyeliner pencil sharpener blade.

Do you hide it? Yes

Anyone know? Everyone thinks that I don't do it anymore, but only my boyfriend knows that I still do it. I'm glad he's ok with it and doesn't judge me.

Ever been in treatment for your Self Injury? Yes, when I was 13 I was hospitalized for being a danger to myself and others.

What are you hoping to get out of this community? I am hoping to meet other people who are like me so I don't feel as alone.
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New here, First post [12 May 2009|02:00pm]

sandraudiga
[ mood | apathetic ]

Name: Lizzie
Age: 20
Location: Norwich, UK
Gender: Female
Form of Self Injury: Cutting, Bruising, Plucking out (pubic) hairs, Throwing myself down stairs, Mostly cutting.

Why do you Self Injure? Because I get so angry and frustrated, it is my only outlet. I adore the scars and I love picking at them before they're healed. Only occaisionally can a channel my anger into something positive. I'm not sure why it started.
Also, I love to watch the blood.

When was your first time?
I first cut myself with a pair of scissors on my leg when I was 11, Before that I used to throw myself down stairs and throw myself out of trees, I didn't really know what I was doing then, everyone just thought I was clumsy.
I didn't cut again until I was 13 and I exchanged cutting for drinking when I was about 15. Now I am 20 don't drink and I am cutting again.I have been cutting for over a year now and as i find nicer and better things to cut with and i am doing it more often I wonder if I'll ever stop.

Where do you most often Self Injure?
I used to cut only on my upper thighs because nobody would ever have to see, now I don't care, I will cut anywhere. wrists is my current favourite, they bleed more.

What do you use?
Craft knives, Razor blades, scissors, fists to punch myself, metal ruler to beat my legs with, and tweezers for the hairs thing.

Do you hide it? Sometimes, if I think people will be shocked or offended by it.

Anyone know? My mother found out when I was 13 and made me stop, so I just hid it better. When i was 15 she saw it again and then she used to check my body every day, so i bottled it all up and drank it out at the weekends, or sometimes before school.
I also used to smoke dope to try and cheer myself up.
She knows I do it again but I don't live at home so she can't stop me, I think she's more interested in getting me help now, which is a massive improvement in her attitude. A few of my closest friends know and so does my boyfriend. Thay have varied feelings towards it but most of them say they wish I wouldn't do it.

Ever been in treatment for your Self Injury? I've never done anything too drastic that can't be dealt with using steri-strips at home. I've never attempted to take my life but i consider it all the time. I am getting counselling for my depression and I'm seeing a half decent doctor for medication.

What are you hoping to get out of this community? I am looking for somewhere I can vent and hopefully make new friends. I'm looking for people who won't tell me to stop what I'm doing but will offer me emotional support if/when I need it.
Hopefully I might be able to utilise my few years of experience helping others on this community.

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First Post [10 May 2009|12:45am]

xxelocinxx

Name: Nicole
Age: Eighteen
Location: New York
Gender: Female
Form of Self Injury: Cutting, Scratching, Biting, Burning, Hair Pulling, Pinching, Bruising, Hitting

Why do you Self Injure? To deal with my crazy emotions, it makes me feel alive and lets me know I can feel, makes me feel in control, I like the sight of blood, sometimes out of sheer boredom. At the same time, part of me does it because I want someone to notice and just help me get better.

When was your first time?
Oh wow, it was such a long time ago. I think it was back in 2001 when I was 11 years old. It could have been a little bit before that, or a little bit after.

Where do you most often Self Injure?
If I am cutting or burning, my upper thighs. Biting and scratching, my hands and arms. Hair pulling is self-explanitory. Pinching, bruising, and hitting are everywhere.

What do you use?
Razor, Paper Clips, Lighters, Scissors, Fingernails, Bobby Pins, really anything I can get my hands on.

Do you hide it? Yes, I do.

Anyone know? I no longer speak to the two people that knew. Seeing as they are my ex-boyfriend (Who I was with for three years) and my ex-best friend (Who is now with my ex-boyfriend)

Ever been in treatment for your Self Injury? I have been treated for a suicide attempt by means of overdose.

What are you hoping to get out of this community? I am hoping to hear some stories, and also have a chance to talk to some people who are in similar situations and feel similarly to myself.

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[09 May 2009|10:24pm]

sophixox
i want to kill myself right now.....
help
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[08 May 2009|09:50pm]

becciboo345
My first post to this community.

Was addicted to Self Harm for 4/5 years.
My mum found out twice. Didn't stop it.

I've stopped now, but still get cravings to do it.
I loved the feeling of release it gave me.
It's what got me so addicted.

<3
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