Location: New York
Form of Self Injury: Cutting, Scratching, Biting, Burning, Hair Pulling, Pinching, Bruising, Hitting
Why do you Self Injure? To deal with my crazy emotions, it makes me feel alive and lets me know I can feel, makes me feel in control, I like the sight of blood, sometimes out of sheer boredom. At the same time, part of me does it because I want someone to notice and just help me get better.
When was your first time? Oh wow, it was such a long time ago. I think it was back in 2001 when I was 11 years old. It could have been a little bit before that, or a little bit after.
Where do you most often Self Injure? If I am cutting or burning, my upper thighs. Biting and scratching, my hands and arms. Hair pulling is self-explanitory. Pinching, bruising, and hitting are everywhere.
What do you use? Razor, Paper Clips, Lighters, Scissors, Fingernails, Bobby Pins, really anything I can get my hands on.
Do you hide it? Yes, I do.
Anyone know? I no longer speak to the two people that knew. Seeing as they are my ex-boyfriend (Who I was with for three years) and my ex-best friend (Who is now with my ex-boyfriend)
Ever been in treatment for your Self Injury? I have been treated for a suicide attempt by means of overdose.
What are you hoping to get out of this community? I am hoping to hear some stories, and also have a chance to talk to some people who are in similar situations and feel similarly to myself.